To the New Year

As I look back on 2013 I see many great memories. A year ago today I was sitting at my sister's watching the ball drop and hanging out with her and troy. Tonight I'm at my brothers house doing pretty much the same thing hanging out with him and his family. I was an RA last year which was a good experience however I would never do it again I got to know Denell who I now call one of my best friends I got to know Zach better which was absolutely fun and hilarious but safely he had to take a job during spring term and left us. I got to be the head wrangler for Butte Creek during the summer which was a fun and challenging experience I might do that again. I lost some friends this summer from their stupidity that I didn't want to deal with but in turn got to know some really awesome people better during that time. I moved into my very first house with a roommate that I absolutely hate but only 6 more months and I will never have too see our talk to get ever again. I made it a definite possibility to moving to Wyoming to live with Lindsey and Colton. My sister got married to the most wonderful brother in law I could ask for. My brother and his wife brought a new baby girl into this family which we are thoroughly enjoying her. It's been a great year full of awesome memories I hope to have just as memorable and challenging and full of changes as this year.

Yipee

Yesterday I officially had my second to last advising appointment. I only have four classes to take winter and spring term and then I will be done with college. The most exciting thing that happened in this appointment is that I applied for graduation and walking in commencement. Yeah! Now I'm spending my weekend with my sister and her family. Oh and this week I got to have lunch with Zach which is always fun we talked and laughed and had an overall good time and delicious food that I made :)

Stuck

For a while now I have been feeling very stuck but today has been the worst. I hear and see alot of my friends so happy and having the time of their lives with their significant others but I on the other hand don't have anyone to share my life with right now. Which usually doesn't bug me and it really doesn't bug me right now either but it is a little saddening that I have no one. this was so not the point of this post haha. okay back on track anyways I feel stuck in a place where I dont want to be I guess that I'm ready for a new chapter or and adventure in my life now but I can't quite get there yet.  In a few months I will be graduating and then I can start a new adventure but the anticipation is killing me waiting to get to that point.

Crushed spirits...lead to new adventures

Today I'm feeling a little down on myself...I really wanted to date this guy but he just wants to stay friends which I am fine with but it still kinda hurts to hear that. We are really good friends and I would never want to lose him as my friend. Now tonight is Halloween so Michelle and I are going out. It will be the very first time since I turned 21 that I am going out in corvallis an tomorrow I am taking my cousin who turned 21 last week out for his birthday. Lots of drinking makes my spirits high and while I spend the next two nights at bars maybe I will find a new guy to pine over for a while haha and my best friend will be calling me tonight whoop whoop I miss her so much! Any way my slightly crushed spirit will hopefully lead to a new exciting adventure because Lord knows I need one because so far my last year of college hasn't been exciting at all what so ever I don't really hang out with anyone I just sit at my house by myself watching movies and tv shows on Netflix. Mmm boring! Well off to finish my homework and read buckaroo barbies blog and buckaroo girls blog and YouTube channel. 

Moving so fast

So fall term had been like blowing by now on one hand this is great because I am so ready to move on from college, from corvallis, and maybe even with Oregon. On the other hand I'm a little sad that it is moving so fast because I don't feel like I have really done anything this term. I haven't really hung out with very many of my friends. I have just kind of kept to myself this term and not really done anything so tonight I will be having a girls night with miss Denell which I'm so excited about and maybe tomorrow I will go ride to clear my head a little.

Motivational Monday's

I would like to rename Monday's, Motivation Monday's, except for me I don't usually have anything motivating or inspiring to say for the most part when I sit down and write on here it is just me rambling much like today. However from now on, on Monday's I will try to put down something inspirational or motivational or something like that. Today I will put a quote that I have seen a lot lately;

You miss 100% of the shots you don't take.

Not only have I been seeing this a lot but I have been feeling like this too...I have been feeling a little bit like I have missed out on a lot of opportunities in life that I should have just gone for despite what people around me said or thought. The biggest one that has been weighing on me lately is moving to Wyoming with Lindsey. Every time I talk to her I here all of her great stories and how much fun she has/is having there and I really wished despite what my parents had said and how much longer I would have to be in school if I moved I had. 

So from now on I'm going to take every shot that I can and not miss any shot that I didn't take because I was afraid of what other people think or say, I don't need to justify my reasons they just need to love me and respect my decisions. And neither do you don't ever feel like you need to or have to justify your reasons for doing something take that with you this week and keep moving...Have a fantastic week!

~Beth 

A new Adventure Begins...

So I spent 8 weeks at a Boy Scout camp this summer as the Head Wrangler and it was the most interesting, exciting, at times frustrating, and rewarding 8 weeks of my life. I had a great staff well the staff I ended the summer with. I would like to share some of the best moments of my summer.

Highlights of my Summer:

Fourth of July with my sister, her husband, his parents, and my girl Lilly

Bridal Shower for my sister

Getting to know a Miss Emily Clay better

Going Swimming with my staff 

Going on a ride with the boys and seeing them just truly enjoying while Emily and I just relaxed and had a nice conversation

Going to the Clark County Fair with Brian (Best date I have been on ever!)

Brian and I taking my staff to the movies

Having a bonfire

Playing a movie in the barn 

Along with playing a movie in the barn Cuddling with the best guy I know (besides my dad...lol)

My sister's Wedding!!!!!

Moving into my first house 

Seeing my best friend LINDSEY and meeting her boyfriend Colton and his best friend Dusty 

Michelle and I's bitch fests

GAME NIGHT :) woop woop 

Summer downers: (Things that put me down this summer)

Losing two friends because I was their boss...not really sad about that because this just means I'm growing up or at least that's how I see it

Not being the best Maid of Honor I could be...sadly I missed out on some great memories with my sister

Mostly the worst thing that I'm truly sad about is not knowing where a friendship/relationship stands...are just friends or are we going to date, and not even being able to talk to him about it. Hopefully I get the opportunity to do so and also the courage to do so. 

Not being able to hang out with Lindsey longer

Not being able to go see Tracy at the river :( 

and at the moment not being able to find a job/ having absolutely no money to anything.

These are just a few things that happened this summer and now its time to start a new adventure here soon with starting my senior year in college and my also proud to say my very last year in college. Coming soon will be a blog post about what I hope to accomplish this year with school and maybe other aspects of my life. Also hopefully I can find a job here soon that can fuel all my fun and exciting (hopefully) things that I want to do this year.

Great times, Good friends

I just got home from the Jordan Valley Big Loop Rodeo a couple of days ago, where I had the best time I have ever had at the big loop. It was great to see all my really good friends who I don't get to see very often we had a good time visiting, drinking, dancing, and selling some wildrags, bracelets, and hats. I was sad that I had to come back to school, it didn't really seem real when I left that I had to get up and go to school Monday morning. I sometimes wish that I had taken a couple of years off before I came to college and did something that I love riding horses everyday and working on leather, hitching horsehair, and learning how to braid rawhide. Then I have to think about when I graduate next year and I can get a great job (hopefully) move away from the Pacific North West and somewhere more beautiful and with less rain, when I can actually afford things and not just skate by on my  loans. Well thats it for now I need to go work on some of my assignments and call the mechanic to schedule an oil change.

Hot spring days in Oregon

This week it has been extraordinarily hot for spring here in Oregon yes I know its only been in the upper 70's lower 80's but for us Oregonians that is like 100 degrees especially in April we usually don't get this kind of weather until the end of June.Any way this heat wave that we are going through right now has brought out some of my favorite salad recipes because I don't want to make the apartment any hotter than it already is...so I thought I would  share them with you

Spinach Pasta Caesar Salad

1 bag of baby spinach
1 bottle of Caesar dressing
1 box of bowtie pasta
2 chicken breasts

bake chicken breasts at 350 for about an hour. cut into bite size pieces then mix all ingredients together.

Tuna Macaroni Salad

1 can (9oz) Tuna
1 box of elbow macaroni
1 c mayo
1/4 sweet relish
1/4 tsp pepper
3/4 tsp salt
half an onion diced
1 stalk of celery diced

cook macaroni according to box. mix all ingredients together refrigerate for at least an hour before serving. I like to make it in the morning and then let it sit in the fridge all day and have it for dinner.

enjoy!

Wedding Plans and Screaming Boys

This weekend I took a weekend away from school and spent it with my sister, her fiance, and his two kids. We worked on some wedding details, like my entire family went to the boot barn and we found boots that we liked, then save the dates were worked on and ready to send out today. My sister and mom also worked on name plates for the tables. After boot shopping we went to find a vale and head piece, also pick up the flower girl dresses. Then on Sunday we took Jillie one of the bridesmaids, bridesmaids dress shopping and finally decided on a dress finally! No more of that stress. well thats it for now have to get ready for class.

Busy day...Lazy night

So today was interesting, I got a call from my mom who then handed the phone over to a fellow employee who then offered me a job, the job I have worked toward my entire Boy Scout Career, but I was caught so off guard that I didn't know what to say. I finally calmed down after talking to my mom, dad, and sister and just thinking about it and I will be the Gilbert Ranch Head Wrangler!!!! So excited!

The we had some team bonding which was not as bad as I thought it would be which was good and then we went bowling as a team which was a blast but now I have a headache so that kinda sucks but it is all good because it was well worth it.

To end my day I'm sitting here on my couch with my roommate watching NCIS, eating dinner and waiting to go hang out with one of my good friends Denell. :)  

Feeling Stuck

Lately I have been feeling like nothing is working out for me and am just ready to move on with life but can't yet (mostly because I am not done with school). Not that I regret coming to Oregon State because I try to never regret anything, my philosophy is never regret, just learn from mistakes and move on. But I have not been happy being here since my first term here, last year was because I didn't really have any friends, this year because well I'm not really sure because I have a few really good friends here this year who we have a blast hanging out relaxing and havin a good time. Maybe its the location, maybe its the school I don't know but I'm really tired of feeling this way, it really sucks. I see many of my friends moving off working at ranches, barns, anything they can get to have a job and sometimes I wish I was them having the strength to just go for it quite school full time and maybe drop down to part time and just go put myself out there and do something I love. Well that's it now I have to get ready to go to class...Have a good day. 

Denell and I playing in the snow

Spring break roping with Stephen

The long term closing in on the End

This term has been really long and very hard. I have a class that I have just struggled and struggled in it seems like nothing I do no matter how hard I study I still don't get a very good grade on the tests and sometimes on the lab which isn't fair because the lab is basically just a have at and you have to figure out what they want instead of it being taught. Only 2 more weeks of classes and two days of Finals left to go and I am so excited to just be done.

The next chapter will be finding a job I really want a job at the Dufur Ranger station working for the forest service but I don't know if I'm going to get it. So send good thoughts and prayers my way!!! Oh and I also need to register for Spring term.

Stress Stress and more Stress

You know those times in your life where you feel like your just buried in stress? Well I am going through one of those times right now. I have been sick since last week and I have only gotten worse not any better, I have 4 midterms next week that I am so not ready for and massive amounts that homework that never seem to end. I guess the good thing is that tomorrow I'm going to Academic coaching to maybe help me get ready for those midterms next week. I'm hoping to take the quotes from the two pictures and integrate them into my life right now.

not enough hours in a day

So its been awhile since I have written on my blog...I have been so busy I know that is cliche but I have since the last time I wrote:

• I sent one of my very best friends off to Wyoming...I sure do miss her even though we talk like every other day haha
• I started Winter term at OSU, which takes up most of my time
• I started a weight loss program with my sister for six sisters stuff
• We went wedding dress shopping for my sister and her wedding in August
• Sent 2 of my roommates back to Cali...I miss them too, things just aren't the same without them
• And last but certainly not least finalized the plans to moving into a house with one of my other besties in June :) 

Well thats about it but I sure feel really busy... Well off to class I have to go.